Audrizzle

this is hilarious. i left in color what i am talking about.

artist's rendering?

anyway, if you haven't checked out Brent's love song yet, you should.
free music!

I wrote this at like 2 pm sunday, now it's almost 3 am monday. Excellent!
thoughtful can have two meanings, can it not?
I will write about the extremeties of yesterday later.
(whoa, rereading this, what the heck was that about?)

Right now I am reading more and more, and I came across this passage.

If the mind of the dying person has not been properly concentrated upon the Clear Light, he is liable to see scores of devils and demons of all sorts! But it is emphasized over and over again in the book that these demons have no actual, objective existence: they are merely hallucinations, or 'thought-forms', having no actuality, save in the mind of the seer. They are all purely symbolical. The mind is capable of manufacturing these, or creating them, just as we do every night in our dreams. He must cleave his way through these into the Clear Light of the Void. The sooner he can do this, the sooner 'liberation' is attained.

That part really reminded me of this quote from Jacob's Ladder:
If you're frightened of dying and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away, but if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels freeing you from the Earth.
It's really interesting because I never thought as that as a movie about spirituality but it really is a great, great film about life and death.

Anyway, more interesting stuff:

The teachings concerning the astral body are very clear and concise: 'When thou wert recovered from the swoon (of death) thy Knower must have risen up in its primordial condition and a radiant body, resembling the former body, must have sprung forth. . . . It is called the desire-body. . . . The Bardo-body hath been spoken of as "endowed with all sense-faculties." . . . Unimpeded motion implyeth that thy present body being only a desire body is not a body of gross matter. . . . Thou art actually endowed with the power of miraculous motion. . . . Ceaslessly and involuntarily wilt thou be wandering about. To all those who are weeping (thou shalt say) "Here I am, weep not." But they not hearing thee, thou wilt think, "I am dead!" And again, at that time, thou wilt be feeling very miserable. Be not miserable in that way. . . . There will be a grey, twilight-like light, both by night and by day, and at all times. . . . Even though thou seekest a body, thou wilt gain nothing but trouble. Put aside the desire for a body; and permit thy mind to abide in the state of resignation, and act so as to abide therein. . . . These are the indications of the wandering about on the Sidpa Bardo of the mental body. At the time, happiness and misery will depend upon Karma. . . .'

I love how the brand of cat food is Special Kitty.

Because I dont really have anything else to do before class, here are some photos.


I guess this tree is very important to somebody.


I love that the French translation of "Tacky Tourist" is "American Tourist".


Me at the baseball game on saturday...


This French stuff is getting to be too much.


Feed me, Seymour!


ahh! i don't know why this hole was there. I think it's cute.


what kind of orange orifice is this?


not phallic at all!


I love the way these little guys look. Always have, always will.

Oh man, I forgot how much I used to absolutely LOVE this song.
It's only love, and that is all, why should I feel the way I do? It's only love, and that is all, but it's so hard, loving youuuu...

Good stuff. Stay in school.

forgot to post this for some reason.
just a building around campus. which seems to have collapsed and been abandoned.

If you happen to be a student at Webster University who has somehow stumbled across this site, please look at this!
I'm running for the Student Government Association, for a position as a Senator at Large.

Here's my flyer, pretty pictures for everyone...


Here are my statements.

Intent to Run:
I am running for Senator At-Large. I am a great
candidate because I have extensive leadership
experience. At Kirkwood High School I was elected
Secretary of my class, where I organized and directed
fundraisers, and was a voice for students on every
level. I also had the honor of being the first
merit-based president of French club, for my work
planning, advertising, and leading group events, and
transforming the club into one of the biggest and most
active on campus. I know how it feels to be
uncomfortable at school, and I’ll work hard to
eliminate that feeling in others.

Statement of Goals:
Though students have endless opportunities to get
involved on campus, some attend Webster for years and
never see a single event. From what I’ve seen, the
promotion of events here is too passive. It’s
difficult for a student who hasn’t yet made many
friends to get up and go to an event after simply
seeing a flyer. If event promoters approached
individuals, talked to them and let them know that we
want them to get involved and be happy, students would
feel more comfortable getting into the swing of
things.
I think having advisors and other faculty members be
more proactive is a good idea as well. We can’t assume
that because someone isn’t complaining that everything
is going fine. With depression and other disorders
being so common, it is necessary to meet with every
student regularly to ensure his/her college experience
is the best it can be. The SGA needs to be active as
well; asking students what they think is or isn’t
working on campus. Not everyone is outgoing enough to
make their complaints known. We represent these
students, we need to get to know them to make Webster
a better place.